why don't i matter?..
- bumblebee
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why don't i matter?..
I am 4 years old..
I am invisible.. and i don't know why..
i stand in the room like you do..
i breathe like you..
I look around me and try to figure out this world that i didn't ask to be part of..
the world that noone seems to want me in.
I hold my hand in front of my eyes.. and i wriggle my fingers..
i stare at the dirty nails.. dirt from the garden wedged firmly beneath.
i love the garden.. the sticky scent of tomatoes thriving in the greenhouse..
the little blue speckled eggs in the nest next to the wire..
the peaches happily climbing across the wall..
the mulberry tree swishing heavily in the warmth of the wind..
I'm not invisible here - i belong..
and i spend my days smiling until the growling of my tummy is loud enough to drag me inside..
nothing is alive inside.. nothing sings.. nothing breathes..
and i'm invisible.
Each little rib can be counted.. as the careful breaths leave my little body..
and as i take a piece of cake to feed my gnawing belly.. i hear footsteps..
i hide under the table..
i know i shouldn't have taken it..
I am invisible.. and i don't know why..
i stand in the room like you do..
i breathe like you..
I look around me and try to figure out this world that i didn't ask to be part of..
the world that noone seems to want me in.
I hold my hand in front of my eyes.. and i wriggle my fingers..
i stare at the dirty nails.. dirt from the garden wedged firmly beneath.
i love the garden.. the sticky scent of tomatoes thriving in the greenhouse..
the little blue speckled eggs in the nest next to the wire..
the peaches happily climbing across the wall..
the mulberry tree swishing heavily in the warmth of the wind..
I'm not invisible here - i belong..
and i spend my days smiling until the growling of my tummy is loud enough to drag me inside..
nothing is alive inside.. nothing sings.. nothing breathes..
and i'm invisible.
Each little rib can be counted.. as the careful breaths leave my little body..
and as i take a piece of cake to feed my gnawing belly.. i hear footsteps..
i hide under the table..
i know i shouldn't have taken it..
Sorrows woven
heart worn..
sing of sadness
until hope brings Dawn..
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heart worn..
sing of sadness
until hope brings Dawn..
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Re: why don't i matter?..
My friend, this is one of the best poems I've ever read. It's sad, menacing, mysterious and frankly disturbing. It stirred something inside me, feelings I would have rather not remembered but that's what great poetry does, it confronts you with reality, past and present, it moves you and challenges you. Hats off to you, sir.
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Re: why don't i matter?..
Great poem. A child ... his/her unhappiness. Guilt and confusion. Life can be hard and cruel.
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Re: why don't i matter?..
My god life can be cruel, I saw images of my own childhood in you words so sad , scary such range of emotions , well done on a stunning piece of poetry xx
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Re: why don't i matter?..
many of us were that 4 year old child... life only existed for us outside... the things we loved too..
Gingerly, I write
Agent of Chaos - Prose'd
Be a law unto yourself
Be a society unto yourself
Be a religion unto yourself
Be unto yourself; Yourself!
Agent of Chaos - Prose'd
Be a law unto yourself
Be a society unto yourself
Be a religion unto yourself
Be unto yourself; Yourself!
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Re: why don't i matter?..
Great poem. Reminds me of a servant child. So helpless. The people round him, so mean. He/she loves the garden ... aye, so full of rich nature, drawing in any innocent soul. Thanks for sharing.
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Re: why don't i matter?..
I concur with what's been posted here...I get different meanings each time, very layered and very impressive. Thank you